There is so much on my mind. I have school waiting for me..but its like I have to get this out. Quite frankily I dont know what it is. Deep down I am so ugly, my true reasons for what I want to do. So unpure. So ignorant, disgusting, cruel, and hurtful. I can be such a jerk.
It shouldnt be all about me. Yeah, I wish it would be. But maybe I should become an actress and a singer more than just for me....and "what makes me happy". Yeah It would be easy to be all about me. Sometimes I wish it would be, sometimes I need that, but you know what being conceited and arrogent isnt worth it.
If I dont like a guy or if I do why flirt with them you know? It only hurts them more than I probably I even know. And you know why is it that I could see myself the last moment of my life be "Oh well lets hope there is enough good pictures of me for me to be remembered". So what?!
You know its just disgusting. I hate the word I when in reference to self. People need a true person to confide in not one that is a beast in beaty's mask.
Im not beautiful, Im not beautiful if all i think about is outward appearance. Outward appearance should be a reflection about whats inside but yet its been prooven not judge a book by its cover. The most sad thing about this is I was a hypocrit and I was so blind to it.
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