Today I am rather sleepy.

I always have so many ti think about. SOmetimes I wish I could just get my break and stop thinking about becoming who I want to be. I mean cant I be what I want? I can be that right now. Just search for more "plays" (auditions).

I dont need to stress I want to know God. Really really know Him. I mean there is something that just triggered my thought process into thinking a whole new way about my faith. I guess that is what it is though. the Key to christianity. Its having faith in what we cannot see and believing God has a prurpose. If I want to follow Him; I want to know who He really is. Satan is evil. God is good. Satan hates all the good things. God hates all the evil things. Satan Loves sin. God Loves love.

Sometimes its so hard to figure. I get so wrapped up in the things of this world. Sometimes I dont even know who I am anymore.

I mean I even question if there is any logic in anything. I dont see. I dont see what I should base who I am on. I mean am I supposed to listen to what people say and govern who I am by that? Am I supposed to know and build myself up by God. Am I supposed to understand in my heart who I really am?

Its just a thought; but what if it doesnt really matter if I have words to describe me. After all I change people change everything changes. Maybe there is a greater purpose than just me knowing who I am. All I know for sure is that I am A Christian.