A change in events. Okay so he and I are friends. I think that is good because he is not totally out of my life and he isnt part of my "romantic heart". He is in my heart. He is my friend. And he is like my brother!! I am so excited!! And before I was kinda upset about not talking more. But the thing was we were talking! I just wanted to feed the sin that I had in my heart, it so easily sneaked up on me. I knew it was wrong but only when I took myself away from the situation did I notice I was sinning. Curse the devil.....
Now that I have established what Im doing with this relationship I see that it is okay just to talk about light stuff and dont put priorities on the other. It shouldnt be any other way. I think this will be very beneficial for our relationship and, figures, my life.
I can have the bost of both worlds. I just need to put my heart in this phase. I can do this. I havent done it before but I can sincerely do this! I know I can. I believe in myself and I trust my determination. And most importantly I trust God. Its either him or I leading my heart. And If I allow him to lead my heart he wont lead me to the wrong path.
Now about my life!! Well God has got to show me where to go as well. Im not sure if He wants me to stay in Kingman and try to be how I once was (which also includes happy!!) and then I could also move and try to start up somehwere else. But I am waiting on Gods lead. Im praying about it and I trust Him to guide my life.
You know I dont know one reason why not to walk with God and trust God with everything I have power over.
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