Well today is a new day. I slept in pretty late but my head is still a little sleepy right now. At least it got me through my AIMS.My AIMS was easy and hard. Like I had writing aims today. The writing prompts for the aims are always like easy. They arent something chanlenging you have to go to research but then again aims is based on how much you know and can expand with your current knowledge within the hour.
It didnt take too long. I was comparing it to my writing aims in the past. yes, I have been home schooled for many years of my life but not all of it. I actually would prefer going to school then looking at a computer screen ALLLL day everyday. Im more of a people person. I dont know the school really didnt shake my faith or any of that sort of thing. I like making friends and stuff like that. I mean I would give up home schooling in a second for a campus but I dont know in my town I guess Im just fed up. The teachers dont grade right the average student doesnt care about their life and loves our town for some reason, they love living in a "wanna-be" big city. I just get so mad, I mean they dont try to go anywhere they want to work at places like McDonalds and Taco Bell becuase its the easiet thing and they are like why try? Why try to make my life worth something when I can slide by? I dont know they are great people but with retarded morals.
I think I should give them a break you know? Becuase like its not like Im perfect. It isnt like Im greater or better than them. I mean Im not better than them. I am equal. God created us equal and thats how I should be. There should be no comparing no prejudice. I hate prejudice. It angers me...anyway like I dont know Im so selfish at times so like "Im better than them in this area".
You know its hard for me to admit but I think that in the past and maybe recently I have tended to think shallow; thinking that just because others are different Im better. And in all reality Im not. I am just as average. Like God created us each equally. He created us unique as well. Like in the worlds standards and judgements we can maybe put us ourselves on a pedestal but then put others on the pedestal above us. Like if someone else knows how to sing better or If I can dance better its like it shouldnt matter. God made us all for a divine a purpose. We each have our own obstacles and our own feelings our own paths that make us different. We are all here to accomplish different things. God made us just the way we needed to be to accomplish the tasks set before us; not to step in to a door that we dont need to, going out of our way to complete a task that was made for someone else. We took our own steps and made someone else not only probably devestated in their heart but also may have made a fool out of them. Totally disrespectful.
Like I dont want to be like that. I think That some people; well each person has their own story and their own background. Every heart is different. different lifestyle, learning styles, different dreams and different reactions. The reason for comparing is to take two of the same and see which is better but the point is no one is the same so its kinda quite foolish to compare. But yeah no matter how much we understand or know of something eventually it just happens, we sin or make a foolish act before we even are conscious of it.
People, people are amazing so complex and their not an object, they are just like me and you. We shouldnt be using them for anything we should just be able to share and get along you know? I think that my problem was that people at the old high school were so slow and so average and they just accepted that label "average" and acted such as not thinking they could do anything more. But I totally disagree I love each and every one of these people; they have so much potential behind that label and they dont and shouldnt have to accept this silly label. I mean labels are silly too. Should I take any of it? like I dont believe that we shouldnt take all of it but I also dont believe we should take nothing that people say about or to us. I dont know whatever anyway says I think that it all goes on in the heart whcih leads to your mind and emotions.
I dont know about others but Im going to base my worth and imporatance on what God's words says and what God says to me. He has an unconditional love that I can trust. Base my feelings and my thoughts on HIm. I am also going to try to examplify it through my actions in any way that I can; this process this ideal. And see if I cant witness that way you know? Let them know they arent stupid and that they need to get off that mind set and start living! Dont think bad of them or think that Im better becuase of where my mind is and where their mind is. You know there is probably a reason why they accpeted that label...
Anyway the point has been drawn I just need to chill now. Thinking this hard hurts your brain after awhile....
So maybe Ill go read. Life as we all know is so tedious but can be so worth it. Today Im thinking tedious so in that case Im gonna live it for God and allow Him to let my hands serve others.
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