Yawn..

Yeah, so every night Isit here (here is very many places) and I think to myself why dont I go to bed Im tired. But guess what I do...just keep searchin the net.

Well I guess it doesnt help when your a little sick so you cant really get of the house and you have school online. But oh well right? Its like 1:00 AM right now....never ever fails! Its like my mind wants me to do something but Im like yeah uh-huh whatever....all I hear is blah blah blah.

So basically its like at night, late at night, I tend to think of the deep and emotional parts of my life. I dont know why but recently I have been struggling with just being positive. But although I am trying to get back to my normal me.

What I have decide in the end, is I mean I wanted to be different. I wanted people to know I wasnt a conformest. If it comes up to something as silly as my laugh then what the hec! You know? So..well sorry I annoyed you...if you love me as much as I love you Im sure you will eventually get over it, and to look on the bright side I am having a great time! So dont burst my bubble!

I mean Its easier said than done but Im pretty sure God can bring me back to the way He planned me to be. Im happy. Im happy with my life. I may have not moved yet, but still my life is still worth living to the fullest. Im happy with who I am and how I laugh. And in the end I would rather be me and different rather than anyone else....at least Ill be remembered. ill be remembered for who I chose to be, myself.