Gee-wiz

what was I supposed to do? I mean like kay heres the sroty:

My church always neglects me and ignores me. I ask to be on a praise team and they say no in a "church-like" way and then others ask me why arent you on the praise team? I dont know is all I can say....

I was suppsoed to sing two solos for the Christmas EVe service that was a dud, they told me to go ask if I can sing with the praise team and I did andyeah, no.

I was just called today to be asked to lead a dramatic reading for sunday, everyone tried to get a hold of me and hour later I call back...well its too late be cause the youth group praise team jumped up to do it. They could do it. They didnt need me. SO I call and they are like oh well sorry we already have it covered.

What am I supposed to do, rejection  after rejection. Why? Why am I get rejected? I dont understand .....well I just need to make my talent pretty much invisible to the church otherwise I will either ask for something and be disappointed or they will ask for something and the n say nevermind... I cant handle that. time after time. It makes me feel like I have no talent and I try to use it. SO why not be like I have no talent and im useles....and then otehr places and go all out with my talent.


You know what, I dont care anymore. They need to stop asking me be cause it hurts too much,

I am almost thinking about not going to church alltogether.