Beginnings

Thinking about this whole experience. I seriously have been thinking thoughts like, what if I fail, what if I fall? What if I am standing there alone. What if I am weaker than I thought. Yes, then I think to myself, maybe I should just not go, maybe I should just let it go and not go.

You know what I think now? No. Am I acting out of fear and doubt. I can doubt myself but not God. He is a part of me and that doubt is now washed away. And I will not run from my fears. I refuse that always.

Now, you know what if I do step into this darkness with my light I will feel better than ever, I can see the waterfalls in sight I just need to keep walking and fighting. This truly, witnessing and professing your faith freely, is an adventure. And I think that will be pretty cool.

honestly I dont know what to expect or how to act when I get out there. I think I will just have to weigh the differences when I get out there. Right now my prep should just be to not adjust to whats out there, continue to be hard core Christian. The best way for me to get to where I can be is to be Christ in all I do; be kind, gentle, firm, my speech seasoned with salt. I need to stick to the brotherhood and pray constantly. Sin has died to me and now I am dead to sin. I wil llive in Christ. I just need to keep this good head on my shoulders.

I need to pray for me not to adjust.