I feel amazing! I just got 100% on my test for geometry and every question except one in my workbook was perfect. I understood everything...Whats funny is all this week I have chose I different genre of music for the school day, today was Christian, kinda cool huh?
My theory? Either God blessed me for obeying (which is what I am studying right now) or my heart was at ease because I kenw I wasnt listening to questioanble music. Ha, yesterday, I listend to soley nonchristian and party music....well yesterday I got bad grades. Figures?
And okay, I have seen some desires. Yesterday I talked about the desire to be me....its slowly coming back....maybe, prayer I guess. And today I figrued out I desire to walk with God, I desire to spend time in teh bible. that stuff is hardcore, its real. You know what my conlcusion is? I dont care if you want to know or not so anyway.....Those cookie cutter Jesus Loves You with girl colors is so overrated that is not GOd. God is real God is blunt, confident outgoing, he is real he isnt fake andmystified fairytale HE is Real! I hate cookie cutter Bible stories...no effense to those holding the little kid ministry but that set me off, the Vacation Bible Schools....
And another desire is to go to school...Its not bad to attend a school, I just need to attend one with right morals, at least a right direction. Not North...If Oaks Christian falls through (although I have this great peace about the school...) then I guess Ill attend Academy if Im still in Kingman and if we move (something I have a faint peace about...which you know mayeb it shouldnt always be about peace...its about the Hope I think thats biblical too you know?!) I will attend a school thats well....cheaper.
But anyway I am trying to seek these desires out...and slowly Im starting to actually feel like I can say, Im Great!...But mayeb not quite yet...But I do have hope that someday I will. Its not about the how, thats Gods department, its about the what. Dare to Desire =).
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