my oh my?

So, tell me what is new? What is new with me? You do want to knwo because you are my blog and the only reason someone would go to this blog page is because they want to read what it says....SOOO

WHat is new with me? I have decided to go back to the drawing board. I am getting my life back in shape. So many different opportunities it was too much I just threw it up in the air. Now I am taking it all in and getting a "regular" together. 17 years old but I gotta a lot to figure out.

ANother thing...I need to make friends in my town. See I have really really amazing friends out of state but in my town no I dont..how ironic is that? And now I have fallen in love and given my heart and 95% percent of my thought to this guy that does not live here! Great!!!

So I have decided I have some "bonding" to make in kingman. Maybe i got off on this silly course cuz I see it as I live out in the mddle of no where so why not cut myself off from people in kingman and just stick with my other friends...maybe not. EIther or I need to start back on that rail.


And you know what is awesome? I have no idea. I just have to look at this year and try to figure out why I left my heart in 2008. Its like that is what I did...I didnt feel like2009 or 2010...but 2011 we will have to see. I have a full year to relook at my life and relook at my outlook on life. Just to rescope and figure things out. Let go a little more....desire, hope again.

Only a matter of time. I dont knmow if its going to go downhill ro if its going to go uphill at this point. And crazy enough Im okay with it. Im okay with this uncertaintity...And it just might be because I have al ittle hope that things in my life may just turn around and may give me life real life again...I have no idea what the two have percentages but all in all the fact that I may find life again is just something to look forward to. =)